A nice weekend

Yesterday and today was this year's marriage conference at our church. It was a really great experience, and I very much enjoyed this time with my husband. Last night we had a talk about the role spanking plays in our marriage, and I think I've finally gotten a pretty good handle on what my needs are in that regard. The other night Nick got out some of our Cane-IAC stuff and we played around for a bit with it. Everything was wonderful, but I just wasn't much in the mood to play, and we didn't go very far with it. Since then I've really been thinking about it, and I've realized that more often than not, spanking during sex is not really what I want and need.

Now this is not me announcing that I'm no longer a spanko, because that's definitely not the case. I've just finally come to grasp that spanking for me primarily meets a deep need for safety and discipline. And while nothing gets me going like the thought of being spanked, when it's not actually addressing an issue (whether punishment, warning, or just plain stress management), it kind of...trivializes it. I don't know if that's really the best way to put it, but it's like I need it to be a situation where he's meeting an actual need of mine, not just smacking my butt, for it to be fulfilling for me.

That doesn't mean that I don't sometimes love to be spanked in bed - I do. I guess I just need for it to have context. The best sexual spankings I've ever gotten have been after hard punishment spankings, when I'm feeling safe and loved and taken care of and feel the second spanking as a continuation of the first, with all the guilt feelings dealt with and out of the way.

I think I managed to communicate this to Nick, hopefully better than I seemed to have conveyed it here, and I think it was a generative conversation. Anyway, that's just the way I feel, the rest of you can feel free to have all the fun, sexy, context-free spankings you want. As for me, I think (hope maybe) there will be something a bit more serious in my near future.

In the cool new stuff category, Nick bought me this very cool shirt at the marriage conference.

And I've totally fallen in love with and highly recommend this website. I got my first orders today, and I'm very impressed! A friend emailed me the link, and I thought, well that's just too good to be true. But I did some research, and everything pointed to a very legitimate company. So with Nick's okay, I took a chance, and I was very pleased! I will definitely be a repeat customer!

Eh...

So right now I'm trying to pull myself out of a pointless funk. Nothing tragic has happened or anything, I'm just feeling low. I've been doing laundry for days, but I can't seem to get on top of things with the house, and work has proven especially frustrating lately. The other night Nick pulled out some of our Cane-IAC stuff and gave it a try, although it didn't go very far. I'm talking literally one whack with each. That's not to say that it was Nick's fault. I just didn't feel up to playing.

Here's the rub. I need to be spanked. I might even deserve to be spanked. I've shown a stellar lack of motivation lately, and I've been shopping more than I should have (probably more than Nick knows). But I can't ask for it right now. Asking for it would negate it, because what I need right now is discipline, not good girls or even stressbusters, and I need for it to be discipline that I don't have a choice in. I guess I need for him to notice that my priorities have gotten out of whack and that I've not been feeling my boundaries, and to

Happy Memorial Day!

Bleh

Sorry I've not been on here more, guys. It's been a busy few weeks, and I've just felt kind of, well, as the title says - bleh. I'm just running low on patience with life in general, work, bills, the constant boundary pushing Morgan seems to be engaging in, and, of course...laundry.

Seriously, how does it happen? I work my butt off to get it all done, then I turn around and next thing I know it's taking over the bedroom.

Nick has been more than patient with me, but I guess what I need is maybe less of that. I know I need to be spanked, would feel better for it, but right now I just don't want it (I know - crazy, right?). We've got a bunch of new toys that haven't even been waved at me, and I know that almost any one of them would do the trick. I just can't bring myself to try to make it happen. With me, the longer I go without being spanked, the less I seem to need it on the surface, although the lack tends to manifest itself in my general outlook.

Anyway...bleh.

New Dining Room Table, Anyone?

Mail Order Intimidation

I got my Cane-IAC order today! What a package! The paddles are everything I hoped for and more, but even better, the Cane Master and Mistress had included a few unexpected freebies for us to try! First of all was a very cool leather riding crop, which I actually knew about because their May special is that one comes free with every order over $35. Also, they sent me a Delrin Ever Ready Cane, a Delrin Cane 5 strand MR OTK (scary stuff, that one!) and a gorgeous green blindfold scarf! Part of the Oak Paddle Value Set was a 5 strand rattan Mr OTK, and it looks like it's going to be a lot of fun! For service and quality, not to mention price, I'd recommend Cane-IAC to everyone!

I also got a chance to finally experience my recently purchased yellow silicone spatulas. That's right - I got spanked! And it wasn't even about the laundry! (Although that may be looming). Nope, it was a good girl spanking,. and it was very, very good. Put me right to sleep! Yum!

Should I be nervous?

Maybe, but I'm actually quite excited! A couple of days ago Nick let me place an order from Cane-IAC as a Mother's Day gift, and I can't wait till it gets here! I've ordered a Patty Paddle and an Oak Wooden Paddle Set. The prices are extremely reasonable, and I couldn't have had better communication with the owners so far. I'm off to do some laundry!

Happy Birthday Grace!!!

To an awesome friend and fellow blogger!

Blessings

Whew! It seems like ages since I've had a chance to sit down and really post! Let's see, what's been happening in my life? Well, about a week and a half ago, the day before Nick's and Morgan's birthday, I called Nick while he was at work, and he said, "I have some news." Okay, he didn't say good news, so I'm thinking, okay, what now?

"Well, you know how my raise was supposed to be on this paycheck? It's not going to be." Okay, this was cause for minor panic, because this was the birthday shopping paycheck, but I just kept listening. "It's not going to be on this paycheck, because it's going to be on the next one, and it's not going to be what I was expecting - it's going to be more!"

Yippee! They went through and re-evaluated everybody in the shop and gave everybody more money, Nick included. So his raise went from 12% to 21%, just like that! So, while I had to do some juggling because it wasn't on the check I was expecting, obviously this is much better in the long run! Also, I got a raise myself the other day (much smaller, but a raise nonetheless), and it will also show up on this check.

In other news, Nick bought a motorcycle a couple of days ago. This was a mixed emotion decision for me. I'm awfully worried that he'll get hurt on it, but it's something he's always wanted, and his raise will more than cover it. I just have to leave him in God's hands and trust Him to take care of him. Money-wise it will pay for itself. Right now it costs us about $15 a day for him to drive his truck to work and back. Riding the bike will cut that by about 80%.

Right now it's just sitting, because he has to get a whole laundry list of things before he can ride: insurance, a helmet, a jacket, a license, a tag, not to mention take a motorcycle safety course he promised me he would sign up for before getting his license. It's driving him nuts to have to leave it sitting, but he's being relatively patient.

As for spanking, there's been pretty much zero going on. We've had good intentions, but life has intervened lately. It's definitely on the list though!

Happy Birthday Theresa!

I hope you had a great day, sweetie!

I've got a fever, and the only cure is...

...more spatulas! Actually, I suppose what I have can be better described as Bethie-itis: I have waaaay too many toys, but my greedy bottom can't resist a couple of cheap implements like these, especially when they're made of my favorite play material - silicone! And appropriately of course, I found them on Bethie's blog. Bethie finds the BEST toys at the BEST deals, and I knew I had to have these. I got them for a mere $6.99 each, and I can't wait to really try them out. Nick gave me a few test whacks with the bottom one, and I was very impressed! Thanks, Bethie!

Happy Birthday!!!

A very happy birthday to both Nick and Morgan today! Nick is 29, and Morgan is 7. Unfortunately he had to work today, but I was off, so I got to have lunch with him. Then I got to go to Morgan's school, where my mom gave her a very sweet and creative birthday party with her class. Tonight we went to my parents' house for gifts and cake. Tomorrow Nick and I are both off,so hopefully we'll get to spend some fun time on a date during school hours. Perhaps I can even talk him into giving me his birthday spanking!

Meme, Blogaversary, and more!

I was over at Grace's, and I picked up this yes or no meme. I didn't have to change very many anwers!

Taken a picture naked? Yes

Made money illegally? No

Had a one night stand? No

Been in a fist fight? No

Slept with your best friend? Yes

Had sex in a public place? yes

Ditched work to have sex? Yes

Slept with a member of the same sex? yes

Seen someone die? no

Ran from the police? No

Woke up somewhere and not remember how you got there? no

Worn your partners unmentionables? no

Fallen asleep at work? Yes

Used toys in the bedroom? Yes

Ran a red light? Yes

Been fired? No

Been in a car accident? Yes

Pole danced or done a striptease? yes

Loved someone you shouldn't? no

Sang karaoke? yes

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

Laughed so hard you peed your pants? Yes

Caught someone having sex? no

Kissed a perfect stranger? no

Shaved your partner? Yes

Given your private parts a nickname? Yes

Ever gone in public without underwear? Yes

Had sex on a roof top? No

Played chicken? no

Mooned/flashed someone? Yes

Do you sleep naked? no

Blacked out from drinking? No

Felt like killing someone? Yes

Had sex more than 5 times in one day? no

Been with someone because they were in a band? No

Taken 10 shots of liquor in a day? No

Shot a gun? Yes

Gone outside naked? Yes

Also, while I was over there, she mentioned that she'd missed her blogaversary, which made me realize I did the same thing - AngelBrat's Blog turned 3 on March 13th. I can't believe it's been three years. I've met so many great people, and I'm so very glad to know you all!

In toy news, my dear husband has been a very crafty fellow. My favorite all time non-spanking toy is the good old silver bullet. The problem with the silver bullet is that it tends to wear out pretty quickly (if that's just with me, please don't tell me). Fortunately the adult store in our area usually has them for around $5, and Nick's always been good about buying me a new one when I needed it. Okay, here's a silly, embarrassing fact about me: I've always been afraid to toss these in the garbage when they wear out, because what if Morgan sees it? So until the other day, I had a bed table drawer full of them that had accumulated over the years.

A couple of days ago, Nick said, "You know, I bet I could fix those. You probably just have a wire loose in the egg part." Sooo...after Morgan went to sleep he gathered up all my poor broken down toys and took them out to the garage. And he fixed like 5 of them! But wait...on one of them, he got creative. When I got it, there was a little speed dial on the side that you used to turn it on and off, up and down. Nick put a push button switch on it, so now it has user controlled pulse action. Yes, I now have a souped-up vibrator. How cool is that?!

In other toy news, I found some super cool flyswatters for $1 at the grocery store the other day. In fact, I bought two of them. I don't know if you can tell from the picture, but the handle has a rubber grip and kind of a narrow bulb shape that stays cylindrical until it gets to the business end, which gives it a real flexibility. I can't wait to play!

Well spanked and well loved

So I got the spanking. Nick claimed it was a medium, and outside the experience, I guess he was right, although when I was trying to claw my way through the mattress it felt more like nuclear war. The truth is, he used his hand, and I didn't get more than a couple of hundred swats. I'm not really even sore today. So guess it was a medium. And it was certainly no more than I needed.

Anyway, after it was over we did indeed move on to more pleasurable pursuits. Nick felt it necessary to tell me that I had been neglecting a certain wifely duty. And we aren't talking about doing the dishes. And he then felt it wise to show me just how serious an offense this was with our heavy orange silicone spatula. Which, in this case was just the right amount of heavy.

And so after a very delicious spanking with the orange spatula, I enthusiastically remedied the situation. In fact, it all went so well that we've decided that in the future, when he's feeling neglected in such a way (even if he's only perhaps been neglected since the night before), the orange spatula would be an excellent way of showing me that he needs some attention.

A rather productive night, I would say.

From today's PostSecret

Happy

Yippee! Nick is back home safe with me! He got back around seven last night, and we went out and had a nice dinner as a family. I'm so very glad he's home! He enjoyed his trip, learned a lot at school, got to drive around some really high-end cars, and had lots of nice meals on the company expense account. I'm a little jealous!

Before he left, he told me that he wanted the house clean when he came home. Now it really wasn't that bad before he left. Since my last big encounter with the AngelBrat Paddle I've done my best to keep on top of things. So it was a pretty simple request to have it clean for him to come home to. I had big plans to concentrate one one room each night he was gone.

Then Tuesday I went to the bookstore. Okay, you may not know this about me, but I like to read. A lot. It's one of my favorite pastimes. In fact, I'm physically incapable of having a meal alone without reading something. If I forget my book on my lunch break at work, I've been known to read junk mail, or one of Morgan's school books, or even my car owner's manual. So yeah, I like to read. And there's a great used book store in our city. The price for paperbacks ranges anywhere from 25¢ to $4.50, usually less than half the publisher's printed price. But the best part is their trade feature. You can bring in your own already-read books and trade them for others. Now they don't give you trade credit for quite the same amount that they charge for the book to be re-sold or re-traded, but still, you're getting something back, and you can always get more than you have trade credit for and pay for the rest in cash.

So on Tuesday my mom took Morgan home with her after school, which is a pretty regular Tuesday thing for them, and I took my bag full of books from my last trip back to the bookstore. And boy did I get books! I got probably 14 or 15, a couple even that I'd already read and wanted to read again. Then I went to pick up Morgan, and I went home and read. Tuesday night I read this one:


Wednesday I read this one:



Thursday I read this one:



And Friday I was well into this one:



I really love Harlan Coben's books.

So maaaaaybe I didn't spend as much time concentrating on the house as I had planned. Now don't get me wrong, it still wasn't bad when he got home. The kitchen in fact looked fabulous (perhaps due in part to mine and Morgan's patronage of all things fast food while he was gone, but I did some cleaning on it too!). But the rest of the house, well it looked more or less like it had when he left.

So there might be a small spanking in my future. I say small because that's what I'm hoping for. Of course I suppose there could instead be a medium or even a large spanking in my future. But there's going to be a spanking pretty much either way.

Even so, I'm so very glad to have him back!

Missing my baby...

....which some people might think is silly, considering he's usually only been home for a couple of hours by this point in the day. But those people don't know how awesome and addictive my husband is! But anyway, he got there safe and sound, and we had a lovely little ooey-gooey phone conversation to make me feel better.

 

Yesterday my friend Alicia (who I teach children's choir with) picked Morgan up and gave me the night off so Nick and I could have some time alone before he had to leave. We went to a gorgeous local park that we'd never been to before so we could see it all and take some pictures of the beautiful spring flowers. Today after I picked Morgan up from school I took her there too, and I got some gorgeous pictures of her. I wish I could put the ones of her up on here so that everybody could see my beautiful princess, but I'll have to settle for showing you some of the park itself...

Waaaaaaaah!

Okay, so I'm being a big baby. Nick has to leave for Atlanta for work tomorrow while I'm at work, and he won't be back till Friday evening. The longest we've ever been apart has been 2 nights, so I'm truly freaking out here. I know, I know - it's just 5 days. He'll be fine, we'll be fine, he'll be back soon and everything will be back to normal. But I don't want him to go!!! So keep me and my sanity in your prayers, and definitely his safety on this trip. Sniff, sniff...

My Awesome Husband

Okay, this story needs a little bit of background. Lately things have been kind of tight for us financially. There have been a number of reasons for this, but part of it was due to some things going on with Nick's job. As many of you know, Nick is an automotive technician (or mechanic for us laypeople). This means that he works on commission. And while he is an extraordinarily talented and hardworking auto tech, working on commission means that if the work isn't there, then neither is the pay.

Anyway, some of the background: Nick has worked for a certain guy, we'll call him John, at 3 different dealerships over the years. When John moved to a new place, he took his favorite employee (Nick) with him, because he knew what a terrific worker he had in him. Now Nick and John both worked (at all 3 places) for a higher up guy - we'll call him Mark. As Mark got bigger and better positions at different companies, he took John along with him, and therefore Nick.

Now John is a very good immediate boss, and while Nick has gone with him several times, other workers at these places have soon followed, just because of what a great guy John is to work for. This sort of ability to attract the best is what has made John so valuable to Mark. So anyway, the last dealership that Nick was at and the one he's at now are both part of the same company. Mark is over both dealerships, and John was below him, running the higher end store. A couple of months ago, John got an offer he couldn't refuse to go to a competitor, and he's been dying for Nick to join him. And because of John's reputation for taking the best techs with him, the management at Nick's dealership came around when John left with a big speech about how they didn't want to lose anyone and wanted to keep everyone happy where they were.

At the time, everybody said, okay, it's been slow - we need more money. Well, obviously John had a replacement - we'll call him Henry. Now Henry was new to the company, and he didn't want to go to his new boss (Mark) and ask for more money for everybody. So he told them that it wasn't in the cards right now for a plethora of reasons: their quality scores (customer ratings) weren't as high as they should be, they had too many come-backs (cars that didn't get fixed right the first time), and their tech notes weren't being done well. (Tech notes: each time a car comes in for work, it gets a ticket, an invoice if you will. The servicing tech is supposed to write detailed notes on what was done and anything else that needed to be done).

Anyway, as far as the team as a whole went, there was some merit to this answer, so, not wanting to rock the boat, Nick let it go. But then, as things began to get pretty tight around here, he realized that he couldn't let the whole team affect his future with the company.

Now, I'm going to brag on him a bit, but everything I'm saying here is completely true. Nick is absolutely the best worker they have. He's the first one there every morning, the last one to leave. His tech notes are meticulous. He never has come-backs, and he fixes everybody else's without complaining. He very consistently turns more hours than anyone else there, by quite a bit. He's been taking online courses, and they're sending him to school next month for further training in this dealership's specific products. He will do any job they hand him without complaining, but since he started there he's gone from doing relatively simple stuff while he learned the product, to rebuilding engines and pretty much everything else that comes through the door.

So all of that is to say that not only did we need more money, but he had definitely earned a raise. Okay, so John has been asking Nick to come work for him again. And he gave him a firm offer of considerably more than he's been making where he's at. Here's the thing though - as much as he enjoys working for John, he loves where he's at. The people are great, he loves the product line, and they have the nicest working facilities in the area. He has also put in the time taking online courses, he has school next month, he knows the product, and he has two weeks vacation starting this year.

So two weeks ago, he went to Henry and presented him with all of this and a request for a raise. Henry said, okay, he'd get with Mark and get back to him. So a week later, last Monday, Nick went back to him to see what the answer was. Henry said, "Oh, I haven't gotten to talk to him, but I'll be doing that here in a few minutes." At the end of the day, Nick went back to him, and he said, "I talked to Mark. We have to run some numbers, and I will get back to you on Wednesday."

Wednesday, Henry cut out early, and Nick didn't get to talk to him. Same thing on Thursday. Friday Nick actually left at lunch time to go get his tattoo finished, and Henry was already gone. By this time, the people Nick works with on a day to day basis knew a bit about what was going on and that Henry was being awfully unavailable. So the guy who works right beside Nick actually tracked down Mark in the parking lot after work and told him that he was going to lose Nick if he didn't get it together and pay him what he was worth. (This guy doesn't beat around the bush). Turns out that Mark didn't know what he was talking about. Henry had never said a word to him.

So today he called Nick into his office, apologized (in front of Henry) that this had all gone on without his knowledge, told Nick how valuable he is to him, and matched John's offer on the spot.

God has been so very, very good to us, and I am so proud of my husband and the hard worker he is. Congratulations, baby - I love you!

Happy Easter!

This morning my church put on this skit. This is not my church in the video, but it was so powerful to me that I had to share it here. I hope it reaches someone.

So Apropos

Holy crap! Two posts in one night! I know, I know. But I was over at His To Spank, His to Love, and I found the perfect sign for me and my life! Perfect, huh? I so need one to hang over my washing machine!

Hooray! I slayed the Laundry Monster!

Yippee! The laundry is all done! So I did get spanked on Monday night, as I expected. And I really did work hard, but there was just no way it was going to get finished in one night. Nick used his hand again, but apparently he decided that since he was only going to give me 25, his hand could handle spanking as hard as he could the whole time. Yeah, that hurt.

Tuesday I was not finished, but Nick gave me a pass on the spanking, for a couple of reasons. First of all, I had a huge amount of it done by the time he got home. Second of all, Monday night we had to go to my Mom's house to pick up Morgan (who at first was going to spend the night again, but then got homesick), and we ended up spending a couple of hours there. That didn't get me out of that night's spanking, because even without the time at Mom's I wouldn't have finished that night, but I might have made it by Tuesday night if we hadn't had to go get her the night before. Plus, putting up all the laundry entailed going through all of Morgan's clothes already in her room to get rid of what didn't fit so I'd have room for what did, so that put me behind too. Also, I was having kind of a blue day, having been through some of my grandparents' stuff when I went to pick Morgan up after work, and he could tell that I needed some understanding.

He let me know however, that there would be no such stay of execution if I didn't get it all done by Wednesday night. Fortunately I finished it all up. So now I just have to keep on top of it.

On to silly spanko stuff - I found this Bar Soap Generator via The Generator Blog, and I couldn't resist:

This is a very quick post...

...because I have lots to do. Okay, I know you won't believe it, but I got spanked again last night. Seriously! I know you're shocked, because I sure am - I mean, it hasn't even been two months yet!

Saturday Nick told me to unload the dishwasher. Now I heard this, processed it, and even planned to obey it, but immediately after that it fell out a hole in my head. I actually looked at the sink full of dishes several times on my way past them during the day and thought "I should really load those dishes here in a minute" without ever remembering that I'd been told to do just that! When bedtime came, Nick pointed out that they were still in the sink, and all of a sudden my memory started working again.

Unfortunately it was too little, too late, and he promised me I would be spanked the next day. Morgan spent the night with my mom since she's on spring break, and when bedtime rolled around again, he turned me over and yanked down my pants. This one wasn't as bad as the last one by far, but it was definitely an attention getter. I got somewhere around a hundred with his hand. I keep forgetting that the reason he doesn't punish with his hand more often is that it hurts his hand, not because it doesn't hurt my bottom. Cause let me assure you, it did. He must have built up some serious strength swinging that paddle last week.

Anyway, here's the really shocking part. Barring a miracle, I'll be getting spanked again tonight. The vast majority of the laundry is done. Really! But there's also an astonishingly large display of clean, folded clothes in the den, and a few more loads left to wash. So until that's finished and put away, I'll be getting spanked every night, starting with 25 swats and going up by 5 a night until I'm finished. I don't expect to get more than maybe two nights, but that means that I have to wrap this up pretty darn quick.

And he's letting me choose the implement. I'd love to be able to pick this:

Sadly, I don't own it. And I have to go with something substantial, or he'll make the choice for me. Sigh...

Anyway, Happy St Paddle's Day! Off to wash and fold!

More fun from Photobucket

I had so much fun with the first Photobucket survey that I decided to do another one!

1. Go to www.photobucket.com (don't sign in)
2. Type in your answer to the question in the "search" box
3. Copy the html and paste for the answer.

1. What is your name?


Seriously! That was the first picture that came up! LOL!

2. What is your relationship status?



3. What is your favorite color?




4.Who is your celebrity crush?



5. What will you do tomorrow?



6. What is your favorite Disney princess?



7. What would you splurge on if you won the lottery?



8. What was the last thing you bought?



9. Where is your dream vacation?



10. What cell phone do you have?



11. What do you want to be when you grow up?


12. What do you love most in life?





13. One word to describe yourself?



14. What drives you crazy?



15. What is your favorite food?



16. Least?



17. Something you're really good at?



18. Random picture:



Actually, this is totally me.

19. Biggest fear?



20. Favorite dessert?