Disappointing news

So I didn't get the job. Actually I applied for two positions, and I didn't get either of them. And while I'm disappointed, I'm kind of frustrated too. The main position was a supervisor spot. And I know that I really would do well in that job and I felt like I had a good shot at it, but I didn't really feel like it was a sure thing. However, the second position I really expected to get. In fact, I almost didn't apply for it, because I was kind of afraid that they might give someone else the supervisor job because I would be so perfect for the other position. The second position is kind of a quasi-supervisor job with a heavy emphasis on new employee training, something I really enjoy and am actually quite good at. There will also be some work doing customer account resolutions, something else I also help out with now.

Actually, I've assisted with training for years, and they've always been happy with my results. A lot of the other duties are also things I currently assist with too. Add to that, my quality and efficiency scores exceed the department guidelines, and I've been with the company (and the department) for almost nine years.

There were two of these secondary positions available, so I was pretty surprised when they went to two people who have been with the company for only three years, one of whom is outspokenly vocal in his criticism of the company (although apparently this never filtered up to management's ears).

Now please understand that I'm not trying to be conceited when I say that I'm more qualified than either of these gentlemen. They are, in fact, decent employees (other than the company-bashing), but neither of them have been trained on the things that the job requires and that I've been doing well for longer than they've worked there. Had the jobs gone to someone with more time and training in, I would have still been disappointed, but I wouldn't have felt like they made a bad decision. They didn't have to pick me - just somebody qualified!

To add insult to injury, my entire next month will be devoted to helping out with the customer resolutions at my current wage, a responsibility they're happy to give me, just not one they're willing to pay me for. Oh yes, and because of this incident, I'm not eligible to apply for jobs outside the department for another 27 days.

Anyway, I went to one of the people who interviewed me, and asked him if he could give me some advice, any suggestions he had for what I can do to improve my chances for future advancement. He had a list of very specific suggestions. Unfortunately, they were all things I'm already doing. He also said that the aforementioned incident wasn't a factor, especially since I've never been written up before in the almost nine years I've been there. So I'm pretty frustrated right now, more than a bit burned out.

Anyway, I know this wasn't a very fun post. I've managed to piss Nick off enough over the house in the last week that there will be a spanking to tell about probably in the next few days, although he's been kind enough to give me some time to me get past my work issues.

Okay, okay, I've gotta post something light, so here are a couple of pictures I took of handlebar tassels when I went to a bike shop with Nick a few days ago. Anybody else see the potential?

Yada, yada, yada

Okay, so I've not been on here much lately. And that's mostly because I've not had anything to post. I mean, this is a spanking blog, right? You guys want to hear all about spankings and lectures and toys and such. Surely you're waiting to hear all about the new Cane-IAC stuff. But here's the honest, unexciting, and perhaps disappointing truth: there is just none of that happening around here. And even worse, I'm pretty okay with that.

What? No spanking and I don't care? What's wrong with me? Surely this is not the same AngelBrat of the last three years?

I guess we're just going through a dry period. And I know I'm not the only one who's been through this. Eva and Grace have been there, I know, and lots of others too. I just don't want it right now. Part of me (that part that wrote the last post) thinks that I really just need a good one to hit my reset button, but when I sit down and think about the actual reality of getting spanked, I just think about how much it hurts, and what a problem it is to find time and privacy, and how big of a hassle I always feel like it is for Nick.

Now the sex lately has been great. We've been having more sex than usual even. And perhaps that's because of this post. Maybe Nick feels more inclined to climb in bed with me knowing that I'm not expecting him to spank me every time he does. Anyway, so that's what's going on (or rather not going on) on the spanking front.

As for the rest of my life, let's see. We're all flying to Texas for Nick's sister Kate's wedding next month. Nick and Morgan have never been on a plane, and it will be my first time since long before 9/11, so we're all a little nervous. But I think it will be fun.

I interviewed for a supervisor position at work a few days ago. This particular position very, very rarely comes open, and I know that I would be great at it, but I'm so trying not to get my hopes up. In fact I almost didn't tell anyone I was applying. Anyway, it will be a few weeks before they make a decision.

Other than that, life has been pretty average lately. I hope you guys have a great week!

A meme and a sigh...

The meme is from Eva, because I thought it looked fun. The sigh is because there's just not been much to post about here lately. Let me be the first to say, Nick has offered. It just hasn't been when I could handle it. I want and need a spanking, but I don't need to play right now, and that was the atmosphere. That said, I don't need an awful, can't-sit-for-two-days butt burner either. I guess I don't know what I need. Something along the lines of a stressbuster/straighten-up-and-fly-straight/attention getter. But I can't express that, because, well, I just can't. So if it's going to happen, he's just going to have to jerk me up and do it. Urrrgggg! I suck.

1. Where is your cell phone? ………….. kitchen
2. Your significant other?………...…….. amazing
3. Your hair? …………………………….. highlighted
4. Your mother? …………… ……….. loving
5. Your father?……………… …………….. protective
6. Your favorite thing?…………………….. family
7. Your dream last night?…………….. forgotten
8. Your favorite drink? …… ……….. tea
9. Your dream/goal?…………….. SAHM
10. The room you’re in?………………….. bedroom
11. Your ex?……………… ………….. forgotten
12. Your fear?…………… ………….. loss
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?….. SAHM
14. Where were you last night?………….. parents'
15. What you’re not?……………………….. perfect
16. Muffins?…………………………………….. yummy
17. One of your wish list items?……….. Liberator
18. Where you grew up?………………….. here
19. The last thing you did?………………….. blog
20. What are you wearing?……………….. shirt
21. Your TV?………………………………….. on
22. Your pets?………………………………….. chihuahua
23. Your computer? ……………………….. laptop
24. Your life?………………………………….. blessed
25. Your mood?……………………………….. tired
26. Missing someone?……………………….. yes
27. Your car?………………………………….. Xterra
28. Something you’re not wearing?…….. pants
29. Favorite Store?………………………….. Target
30. Your summer?……………………….. hot
31. Like(love) someone?……………….. madly
32. Your favorite color?……………………. pink
33. Last time you laughed?………….. earlier
34. Last time you cried?………………….. Wednesday
35. Who will re-post this?……………….. someone

Happy Birthday Eva!!!

I hope it's been wonderful!

Busy Life...

Hey, guys. Sorry for the long silence here. Life has just been crazy busy lately. Our vacation was great, beautiful weather. I have a few new toys to show you, although we've had zero time to try any of them out. I got this one while we were on vacation. It's more novelty than anything, because it's not very sturdy, but I thought it was cute:

Nick found this down by the lake at the cabin and immediately saw the possibilities:

Then I got this sticker when I went to a bike shop with Nick the other day:

But my very favorite new toys were waiting on me when we got back from the cabin - my new stuff from Cane-IAC! They sent me a new rattan cane (top), and well as a nylon cane (bottom) so that we can um, explore the finer differences between the two:

And they replaced our broken 1/4 inch paddle with a brand new 1/2 inch version. This one won't be cracking!

Their new paddles have cool new rubber grip handles that Nick really loves, as well as very cool new tags that you can put on your key chain if you'd like. I can't wait to try these out, and I just want to say again how highly I recommend this company!