A meme and a sigh...

The meme is from Eva, because I thought it looked fun. The sigh is because there's just not been much to post about here lately. Let me be the first to say, Nick has offered. It just hasn't been when I could handle it. I want and need a spanking, but I don't need to play right now, and that was the atmosphere. That said, I don't need an awful, can't-sit-for-two-days butt burner either. I guess I don't know what I need. Something along the lines of a stressbuster/straighten-up-and-fly-straight/attention getter. But I can't express that, because, well, I just can't. So if it's going to happen, he's just going to have to jerk me up and do it. Urrrgggg! I suck.

1. Where is your cell phone? ………….. kitchen
2. Your significant other?………...…….. amazing
3. Your hair? …………………………….. highlighted
4. Your mother? …………… ……….. loving
5. Your father?……………… …………….. protective
6. Your favorite thing?…………………….. family
7. Your dream last night?…………….. forgotten
8. Your favorite drink? …… ……….. tea
9. Your dream/goal?…………….. SAHM
10. The room you’re in?………………….. bedroom
11. Your ex?……………… ………….. forgotten
12. Your fear?…………… ………….. loss
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?….. SAHM
14. Where were you last night?………….. parents'
15. What you’re not?……………………….. perfect
16. Muffins?…………………………………….. yummy
17. One of your wish list items?……….. Liberator
18. Where you grew up?………………….. here
19. The last thing you did?………………….. blog
20. What are you wearing?……………….. shirt
21. Your TV?………………………………….. on
22. Your pets?………………………………….. chihuahua
23. Your computer? ……………………….. laptop
24. Your life?………………………………….. blessed
25. Your mood?……………………………….. tired
26. Missing someone?……………………….. yes
27. Your car?………………………………….. Xterra
28. Something you’re not wearing?…….. pants
29. Favorite Store?………………………….. Target
30. Your summer?……………………….. hot
31. Like(love) someone?……………….. madly
32. Your favorite color?……………………. pink
33. Last time you laughed?………….. earlier
34. Last time you cried?………………….. Wednesday
35. Who will re-post this?……………….. someone

Happy Birthday Eva!!!

I hope it's been wonderful!

Busy Life...

Hey, guys. Sorry for the long silence here. Life has just been crazy busy lately. Our vacation was great, beautiful weather. I have a few new toys to show you, although we've had zero time to try any of them out. I got this one while we were on vacation. It's more novelty than anything, because it's not very sturdy, but I thought it was cute:

Nick found this down by the lake at the cabin and immediately saw the possibilities:

Then I got this sticker when I went to a bike shop with Nick the other day:

But my very favorite new toys were waiting on me when we got back from the cabin - my new stuff from Cane-IAC! They sent me a new rattan cane (top), and well as a nylon cane (bottom) so that we can um, explore the finer differences between the two:

And they replaced our broken 1/4 inch paddle with a brand new 1/2 inch version. This one won't be cracking!

Their new paddles have cool new rubber grip handles that Nick really loves, as well as very cool new tags that you can put on your key chain if you'd like. I can't wait to try these out, and I just want to say again how highly I recommend this company!

Vacation Time!

Nick and I are on vacation starting today. We'll be heading (along with Morgan of course) up to his grandparents' cabin on the lake for the week. We spent our honeymoon there, and we always go back in June. Our 10th anniversary is this coming Thursday. Hopefully I'll have our new Cane-IAC stuff by the time we get back and can update you all on the finer points of the difference between nylon and rattan WEG. You guys have a great week!

Happy Father's Day!

To all the wonderful father's out there, and most especially to the father who got up in the middle of the night to clean the bedroom carpet, the bathroom floor, and the toilet, and do a load of laundry while I took care of our sick seven year old last night - you humble me with your dedication.

Oops...

So it turns out that it was not, in fact, a nylon Ever Ready that Nick broke on my butt. It was actually a rattan Ever Ready. Me being such a cane novice, and the rattan being so nicely finished, I couldn't tell the difference. I got a rather shocked and impressed email from the Cane Master at Cane-IAC, and after I sent him some pictures, he was able to see that what I had was rattan. Nobody has ever reported that they've broken one of their nylon canes, and apparently I'm one of the very few who has managed to do it with a spanking new (hehe) rattan one. Anyway, he is very kindly sending me not only a replacement for the Rattan Ever Ready, but a Nylon Ever Ready too, so that Nick and I can ahem, study the differences between the two. He's also sending a 1/2 inch oak paddle to replace the 1/4 inch one that we broke. I just want to say again how incredibly awesome Cane-IAC has been to do business with, and I recommend them highly! Some of the products you see on their site (like the Patty Paddles) are the actual items you are purchasing, so you don't ever have to worry that you won't like the grain on the paddle or the handle on the cane you order - what you see is what you get, and that's a good thing. And there's always something new to see, because as they sell stock, new stuff gets added. Nick is pretty excited about the new stuff we have on the way, and dare I say...challenged. LOL! Happy spanking, guys...

Owwwwwwwwww

I got paddled pretty freakin' hard tonight. I got myself in a little bit of trouble with the totally awesome, totally professional, now totally off-limits Silver Jewelry Club. Like $133 worth of trouble. And that unfortunately led to a discussion about my great relationship with the Avon lady. And then that led to Nick telling me to total up my overspending, because it was going to be "discussed."

And so, in the spirit of honesty, I got the checkbook out, went back a month, and totalled up everything unnecessary that I'd bought. And was rather stunned. It turns out that the jewelry was the tip of the iceberg. A $497 iceberg. So when we both got home from work, I got Morgan down for a nap, and Nick took me upstairs to paddle me.

He got out Jokari, bent me over the corner of the bed, and went to work. The corner of the bed is a new position for us, but an effective one. Recently we got a new bed, and, just as a lark, stacked both the old and new mattresses. Then we realized just how many advantages there were to having a bed at that height (use your imaginations, folks), and we left it. This is the first time we've used it for spanking, and it was very...operational. All of our spanking implements are in a big wooden chest at the end of the bed, so I was blocked by Nick on my right, the chest on my left, the bed in front of me, and well, a big mean paddle behind me. If staying in place wasn't any easier, moving at least was pretty much impossible.

He gave me one swat for every dollar spent. Then, when I'd settled a bit, we climbed into bed and I showed him what a good girl I could be, now that I was properly punished. Then he got out the Cane-IAC stuff - and managed to break two of the pieces! He actually broke the wide oak paddle on the first whack, although the other two oak paddles held up well. Then he broke the nylon Ever Ready cane at the handle. But I'm going to send them both in for replacements. Cane-IAC has a wonderful satisfaction guarantee, and Nick definitely wants them in his arsenal.

Then, he picked up the Patty Paddle. Holy Crap! I got spanked HARD with that one, harder even than with Jokari. He bent me over for 25 very, very hard swats. This may be his new favorite. I know that it's now the paddle I'm most afraid of.

Anyway, now I'm very, very, very sore, and very, very, very well cared for. I feel level again.

A nice weekend

Yesterday and today was this year's marriage conference at our church. It was a really great experience, and I very much enjoyed this time with my husband. Last night we had a talk about the role spanking plays in our marriage, and I think I've finally gotten a pretty good handle on what my needs are in that regard. The other night Nick got out some of our Cane-IAC stuff and we played around for a bit with it. Everything was wonderful, but I just wasn't much in the mood to play, and we didn't go very far with it. Since then I've really been thinking about it, and I've realized that more often than not, spanking during sex is not really what I want and need.

Now this is not me announcing that I'm no longer a spanko, because that's definitely not the case. I've just finally come to grasp that spanking for me primarily meets a deep need for safety and discipline. And while nothing gets me going like the thought of being spanked, when it's not actually addressing an issue (whether punishment, warning, or just plain stress management), it kind of...trivializes it. I don't know if that's really the best way to put it, but it's like I need it to be a situation where he's meeting an actual need of mine, not just smacking my butt, for it to be fulfilling for me.

That doesn't mean that I don't sometimes love to be spanked in bed - I do. I guess I just need for it to have context. The best sexual spankings I've ever gotten have been after hard punishment spankings, when I'm feeling safe and loved and taken care of and feel the second spanking as a continuation of the first, with all the guilt feelings dealt with and out of the way.

I think I managed to communicate this to Nick, hopefully better than I seemed to have conveyed it here, and I think it was a generative conversation. Anyway, that's just the way I feel, the rest of you can feel free to have all the fun, sexy, context-free spankings you want. As for me, I think (hope maybe) there will be something a bit more serious in my near future.

In the cool new stuff category, Nick bought me this very cool shirt at the marriage conference.

And I've totally fallen in love with and highly recommend this website. I got my first orders today, and I'm very impressed! A friend emailed me the link, and I thought, well that's just too good to be true. But I did some research, and everything pointed to a very legitimate company. So with Nick's okay, I took a chance, and I was very pleased! I will definitely be a repeat customer!

Eh...

So right now I'm trying to pull myself out of a pointless funk. Nothing tragic has happened or anything, I'm just feeling low. I've been doing laundry for days, but I can't seem to get on top of things with the house, and work has proven especially frustrating lately. The other night Nick pulled out some of our Cane-IAC stuff and gave it a try, although it didn't go very far. I'm talking literally one whack with each. That's not to say that it was Nick's fault. I just didn't feel up to playing.

Here's the rub. I need to be spanked. I might even deserve to be spanked. I've shown a stellar lack of motivation lately, and I've been shopping more than I should have (probably more than Nick knows). But I can't ask for it right now. Asking for it would negate it, because what I need right now is discipline, not good girls or even stressbusters, and I need for it to be discipline that I don't have a choice in. I guess I need for him to notice that my priorities have gotten out of whack and that I've not been feeling my boundaries, and to

Happy Memorial Day!

Bleh

Sorry I've not been on here more, guys. It's been a busy few weeks, and I've just felt kind of, well, as the title says - bleh. I'm just running low on patience with life in general, work, bills, the constant boundary pushing Morgan seems to be engaging in, and, of course...laundry.

Seriously, how does it happen? I work my butt off to get it all done, then I turn around and next thing I know it's taking over the bedroom.

Nick has been more than patient with me, but I guess what I need is maybe less of that. I know I need to be spanked, would feel better for it, but right now I just don't want it (I know - crazy, right?). We've got a bunch of new toys that haven't even been waved at me, and I know that almost any one of them would do the trick. I just can't bring myself to try to make it happen. With me, the longer I go without being spanked, the less I seem to need it on the surface, although the lack tends to manifest itself in my general outlook.

Anyway...bleh.

New Dining Room Table, Anyone?

Mail Order Intimidation

I got my Cane-IAC order today! What a package! The paddles are everything I hoped for and more, but even better, the Cane Master and Mistress had included a few unexpected freebies for us to try! First of all was a very cool leather riding crop, which I actually knew about because their May special is that one comes free with every order over $35. Also, they sent me a Delrin Ever Ready Cane, a Delrin Cane 5 strand MR OTK (scary stuff, that one!) and a gorgeous green blindfold scarf! Part of the Oak Paddle Value Set was a 5 strand rattan Mr OTK, and it looks like it's going to be a lot of fun! For service and quality, not to mention price, I'd recommend Cane-IAC to everyone!

I also got a chance to finally experience my recently purchased yellow silicone spatulas. That's right - I got spanked! And it wasn't even about the laundry! (Although that may be looming). Nope, it was a good girl spanking,. and it was very, very good. Put me right to sleep! Yum!

Should I be nervous?

Maybe, but I'm actually quite excited! A couple of days ago Nick let me place an order from Cane-IAC as a Mother's Day gift, and I can't wait till it gets here! I've ordered a Patty Paddle and an Oak Wooden Paddle Set. The prices are extremely reasonable, and I couldn't have had better communication with the owners so far. I'm off to do some laundry!

Happy Birthday Grace!!!

To an awesome friend and fellow blogger!

Blessings

Whew! It seems like ages since I've had a chance to sit down and really post! Let's see, what's been happening in my life? Well, about a week and a half ago, the day before Nick's and Morgan's birthday, I called Nick while he was at work, and he said, "I have some news." Okay, he didn't say good news, so I'm thinking, okay, what now?

"Well, you know how my raise was supposed to be on this paycheck? It's not going to be." Okay, this was cause for minor panic, because this was the birthday shopping paycheck, but I just kept listening. "It's not going to be on this paycheck, because it's going to be on the next one, and it's not going to be what I was expecting - it's going to be more!"

Yippee! They went through and re-evaluated everybody in the shop and gave everybody more money, Nick included. So his raise went from 12% to 21%, just like that! So, while I had to do some juggling because it wasn't on the check I was expecting, obviously this is much better in the long run! Also, I got a raise myself the other day (much smaller, but a raise nonetheless), and it will also show up on this check.

In other news, Nick bought a motorcycle a couple of days ago. This was a mixed emotion decision for me. I'm awfully worried that he'll get hurt on it, but it's something he's always wanted, and his raise will more than cover it. I just have to leave him in God's hands and trust Him to take care of him. Money-wise it will pay for itself. Right now it costs us about $15 a day for him to drive his truck to work and back. Riding the bike will cut that by about 80%.

Right now it's just sitting, because he has to get a whole laundry list of things before he can ride: insurance, a helmet, a jacket, a license, a tag, not to mention take a motorcycle safety course he promised me he would sign up for before getting his license. It's driving him nuts to have to leave it sitting, but he's being relatively patient.

As for spanking, there's been pretty much zero going on. We've had good intentions, but life has intervened lately. It's definitely on the list though!

Happy Birthday Theresa!

I hope you had a great day, sweetie!

I've got a fever, and the only cure is...

...more spatulas! Actually, I suppose what I have can be better described as Bethie-itis: I have waaaay too many toys, but my greedy bottom can't resist a couple of cheap implements like these, especially when they're made of my favorite play material - silicone! And appropriately of course, I found them on Bethie's blog. Bethie finds the BEST toys at the BEST deals, and I knew I had to have these. I got them for a mere $6.99 each, and I can't wait to really try them out. Nick gave me a few test whacks with the bottom one, and I was very impressed! Thanks, Bethie!

Happy Birthday!!!

A very happy birthday to both Nick and Morgan today! Nick is 29, and Morgan is 7. Unfortunately he had to work today, but I was off, so I got to have lunch with him. Then I got to go to Morgan's school, where my mom gave her a very sweet and creative birthday party with her class. Tonight we went to my parents' house for gifts and cake. Tomorrow Nick and I are both off,so hopefully we'll get to spend some fun time on a date during school hours. Perhaps I can even talk him into giving me his birthday spanking!

Meme, Blogaversary, and more!

I was over at Grace's, and I picked up this yes or no meme. I didn't have to change very many anwers!

Taken a picture naked? Yes

Made money illegally? No

Had a one night stand? No

Been in a fist fight? No

Slept with your best friend? Yes

Had sex in a public place? yes

Ditched work to have sex? Yes

Slept with a member of the same sex? yes

Seen someone die? no

Ran from the police? No

Woke up somewhere and not remember how you got there? no

Worn your partners unmentionables? no

Fallen asleep at work? Yes

Used toys in the bedroom? Yes

Ran a red light? Yes

Been fired? No

Been in a car accident? Yes

Pole danced or done a striptease? yes

Loved someone you shouldn't? no

Sang karaoke? yes

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

Laughed so hard you peed your pants? Yes

Caught someone having sex? no

Kissed a perfect stranger? no

Shaved your partner? Yes

Given your private parts a nickname? Yes

Ever gone in public without underwear? Yes

Had sex on a roof top? No

Played chicken? no

Mooned/flashed someone? Yes

Do you sleep naked? no

Blacked out from drinking? No

Felt like killing someone? Yes

Had sex more than 5 times in one day? no

Been with someone because they were in a band? No

Taken 10 shots of liquor in a day? No

Shot a gun? Yes

Gone outside naked? Yes

Also, while I was over there, she mentioned that she'd missed her blogaversary, which made me realize I did the same thing - AngelBrat's Blog turned 3 on March 13th. I can't believe it's been three years. I've met so many great people, and I'm so very glad to know you all!

In toy news, my dear husband has been a very crafty fellow. My favorite all time non-spanking toy is the good old silver bullet. The problem with the silver bullet is that it tends to wear out pretty quickly (if that's just with me, please don't tell me). Fortunately the adult store in our area usually has them for around $5, and Nick's always been good about buying me a new one when I needed it. Okay, here's a silly, embarrassing fact about me: I've always been afraid to toss these in the garbage when they wear out, because what if Morgan sees it? So until the other day, I had a bed table drawer full of them that had accumulated over the years.

A couple of days ago, Nick said, "You know, I bet I could fix those. You probably just have a wire loose in the egg part." Sooo...after Morgan went to sleep he gathered up all my poor broken down toys and took them out to the garage. And he fixed like 5 of them! But wait...on one of them, he got creative. When I got it, there was a little speed dial on the side that you used to turn it on and off, up and down. Nick put a push button switch on it, so now it has user controlled pulse action. Yes, I now have a souped-up vibrator. How cool is that?!

In other toy news, I found some super cool flyswatters for $1 at the grocery store the other day. In fact, I bought two of them. I don't know if you can tell from the picture, but the handle has a rubber grip and kind of a narrow bulb shape that stays cylindrical until it gets to the business end, which gives it a real flexibility. I can't wait to play!

Well spanked and well loved

So I got the spanking. Nick claimed it was a medium, and outside the experience, I guess he was right, although when I was trying to claw my way through the mattress it felt more like nuclear war. The truth is, he used his hand, and I didn't get more than a couple of hundred swats. I'm not really even sore today. So guess it was a medium. And it was certainly no more than I needed.

Anyway, after it was over we did indeed move on to more pleasurable pursuits. Nick felt it necessary to tell me that I had been neglecting a certain wifely duty. And we aren't talking about doing the dishes. And he then felt it wise to show me just how serious an offense this was with our heavy orange silicone spatula. Which, in this case was just the right amount of heavy.

And so after a very delicious spanking with the orange spatula, I enthusiastically remedied the situation. In fact, it all went so well that we've decided that in the future, when he's feeling neglected in such a way (even if he's only perhaps been neglected since the night before), the orange spatula would be an excellent way of showing me that he needs some attention.

A rather productive night, I would say.

From today's PostSecret

Happy

Yippee! Nick is back home safe with me! He got back around seven last night, and we went out and had a nice dinner as a family. I'm so very glad he's home! He enjoyed his trip, learned a lot at school, got to drive around some really high-end cars, and had lots of nice meals on the company expense account. I'm a little jealous!

Before he left, he told me that he wanted the house clean when he came home. Now it really wasn't that bad before he left. Since my last big encounter with the AngelBrat Paddle I've done my best to keep on top of things. So it was a pretty simple request to have it clean for him to come home to. I had big plans to concentrate one one room each night he was gone.

Then Tuesday I went to the bookstore. Okay, you may not know this about me, but I like to read. A lot. It's one of my favorite pastimes. In fact, I'm physically incapable of having a meal alone without reading something. If I forget my book on my lunch break at work, I've been known to read junk mail, or one of Morgan's school books, or even my car owner's manual. So yeah, I like to read. And there's a great used book store in our city. The price for paperbacks ranges anywhere from 25¢ to $4.50, usually less than half the publisher's printed price. But the best part is their trade feature. You can bring in your own already-read books and trade them for others. Now they don't give you trade credit for quite the same amount that they charge for the book to be re-sold or re-traded, but still, you're getting something back, and you can always get more than you have trade credit for and pay for the rest in cash.

So on Tuesday my mom took Morgan home with her after school, which is a pretty regular Tuesday thing for them, and I took my bag full of books from my last trip back to the bookstore. And boy did I get books! I got probably 14 or 15, a couple even that I'd already read and wanted to read again. Then I went to pick up Morgan, and I went home and read. Tuesday night I read this one:


Wednesday I read this one:



Thursday I read this one:



And Friday I was well into this one:



I really love Harlan Coben's books.

So maaaaaybe I didn't spend as much time concentrating on the house as I had planned. Now don't get me wrong, it still wasn't bad when he got home. The kitchen in fact looked fabulous (perhaps due in part to mine and Morgan's patronage of all things fast food while he was gone, but I did some cleaning on it too!). But the rest of the house, well it looked more or less like it had when he left.

So there might be a small spanking in my future. I say small because that's what I'm hoping for. Of course I suppose there could instead be a medium or even a large spanking in my future. But there's going to be a spanking pretty much either way.

Even so, I'm so very glad to have him back!

Missing my baby...

....which some people might think is silly, considering he's usually only been home for a couple of hours by this point in the day. But those people don't know how awesome and addictive my husband is! But anyway, he got there safe and sound, and we had a lovely little ooey-gooey phone conversation to make me feel better.

 

Yesterday my friend Alicia (who I teach children's choir with) picked Morgan up and gave me the night off so Nick and I could have some time alone before he had to leave. We went to a gorgeous local park that we'd never been to before so we could see it all and take some pictures of the beautiful spring flowers. Today after I picked Morgan up from school I took her there too, and I got some gorgeous pictures of her. I wish I could put the ones of her up on here so that everybody could see my beautiful princess, but I'll have to settle for showing you some of the park itself...

Waaaaaaaah!

Okay, so I'm being a big baby. Nick has to leave for Atlanta for work tomorrow while I'm at work, and he won't be back till Friday evening. The longest we've ever been apart has been 2 nights, so I'm truly freaking out here. I know, I know - it's just 5 days. He'll be fine, we'll be fine, he'll be back soon and everything will be back to normal. But I don't want him to go!!! So keep me and my sanity in your prayers, and definitely his safety on this trip. Sniff, sniff...